After much thought, I have decided on my word of the year for 2017.
Last year, my word was INTENTIONAL. I wanted to focus on living a purposeful life. This meant identifying my big goals AND taking action steps to achieve those goals. I used Lara Casey’s Power Sheets, which were extremely helpful. And I’m happy to say that many of my goals were met……or at least a lot of progress was made. Some of my goals changed, and that’s OK, too.
Another aspect of living intentionally was that I wanted to take more control of how I spent my time. When I filled out the Power Sheets, it became very apparent that a lot of my time got wasted watching TV and scrolling mindlessly through social media posts. I still have a long way to go. However, I have gotten a better handle on my time. And that regained time has helped me achieve some of my goals! Win – win!!!
I’ve thought a lot about it and prayed a lot about it. And I’ve realized that one of my big problems is negative comparison. I was listening to a podcast a few months ago, and something very real was brought to my attention. I’ll look at Well-known Person A doing X, and I’ll think, “I need to be doing X, too.” And then I’ll see Well-known Person B doing Y, and I’ll think, “I need to be doing Y, also.” And then there’s Well-known Person C, looking all perfect and doing Z. Now I think I need to be doing X, Y, AND Z. And that’s a problem. Because I’ve made an impossibly perfect amalgam out of all of these different people. And this imaginary perfect person does X, Y, Z….. AND Q, W, T, S, B, D, and F. And that’s just CRAZY!!!!! I’m trying to live up to someone that doesn’t even exist!
So, for my word for this year, I’ve chosen EXPLORE. Because I need to just be me. And I kind of need to figure out what that looks like. I think I’ve been trying to be someone else for a long time–even if it’s a perfect, made-up person. I want to give myself permission to explore more who GOD wants me to be, rather than who I think or who others think I should be. I want to explore what my photography business is meant to be….not just imitate others. I don’t want to look back at the end of my life and think I put myself in a box by doing what the ideal person I’ve created would do all the time. I want to be the wife and mom I was meant to be.
This post is very personal, but I think that’s OK. Maybe someone else is struggling with similar things. 2017 has come in like a breath of fresh air for me. I’m hope to do a lot of exploring this year!!!